Rassi wasn’t surprised that they arrived at Kardebron late. Disappointed, but not surprised. Though Goldie really had made the best possible time to reach the pirate fortress turned pirate resort, Rassi had been able to sense that their destinies did not include a reunion with Nix. At least not within either of their immediate futures.

“How long ago did they leave Aunt Sali?” Goldie asked, having established communications with her ‘favorite aunt’ the moment they dropped out of hyperspace.

“About two days ago,” the Pirate Queen Saliandrus said. “Took my Zin with them too!”

From the slight slurring in her tone, it was just possible that ‘Aunt Sali’ had imbibed a bit too much of something.

“Give me the coordinates and I’ll go bring them back,” Goldie said.

“On one condition,” Sali said.

“Mom’s still not letting me take part in any space battles,” Goldie said.

“Oh, don’t worry about that. I’ll have you pillaging ships ten times your size this standard,” Sali said. “That’s not what I need at the moment though.”

“I hope so. What’s your condition though if not pillaging?” Goldie asked in a tone that left Rassi wondering if the talk of piracy was a long running joke, or something the two were seriously considering.

“I’ve got a handful of people here who stayed behind to practice their Force stuff,” Sali said. “They’ve practiced enough though, and each one is mopier than the last. I’ll tell you where your Mom’s went if you give this Lost lot a trip back home.”

“Is that Tovos and the other who started this by kidnapping Nix and Ayli?” Goldie asked.

“Yep. Or most of them I gather,” Sali said.

“If you put them in a shuttle, I’d be happy to test out the weapon systems you got for me!” Goldie said. She didn’t sound remorseless at the idea like a machine would. Somehow Goldie’s gleeful malice had an entirely human quality to it.

“I’d be happy to, but Nix seems to have taken them under her wing,” Sali said. “Called them her wards, so I’m guessing she’d be a little put out if I let you blow them to space dust.”

“Nix…Mom did what?” Goldie asked. “Wards?”

“Yeah. Means she’s responsible for them.” Sali wasn’t as incredulous as Goldie was but she didn’t sound like she could understand Nix’s reasoning either.

“I know that, but why?”

“Have you met your mother?” Sali asked, her grin audible from a few planetary diameters away.

Rassi reached out with the Force, which felt funny to do. She was so used to shying away from it that actively engaging felt clumsy and awkward. Like making conversation with a girl who you thought was awesome but who you’d never talked to because she was best and you were just the worse. Much like how Rassi did eventually manage to bring herself to talk with Solna though, her conversation with the Force was met with equal eagerness on both sides.

Together with her oldest friend, they felt across the void, through the atmosphere and down into Sali’s fortress to find the barest of whispers to indicate that Tovos and several others from the Enclave where there.

Her mind shied away from focusing on them any further. She’d had too many bad experiences with them to feel anything close to neutral to the idea of them joining Goldie’s crew, even if it was for a brief one way trip back to the Enclave.

As she withdrew her focus though, Rassi was struck by the fact that she’d been able to detect them at all.

It was true that she had a greater connection to them than to most of the rest of the galaxy, but none of them were living up the silence the Enclave demanded. Sure they were far quieter than anyone outside the Enclave could claim to be, but even though their thoughts were little more than whispers, they were whispers Rassi could still hear.

Which meant something was either very wrong with them, or they had changed far more than Rassi could ever imagine them changing.

Or both.

“We should see what’s happened to them,” Rassi said.

“Yeah, we need to know why they stayed behind,” Solna added, her thoughts running along similar paths to Rassi’s from the look in her eyes.

 “Fine, we can take them along,” Goldie said.

“And me,” Sali added. “I had some things I had to attend to when they left. Since I have drunk those things under the bar however, I am free to take a leave of absence.”

“You get vacation time?” Goldie asked.

“In this job you don’t get vacation time. You make it,” Sali said. “I’ll make sure people here know what a bad idea it would be if I come back and everything’s fallen to poodu. Which means I get to enjoy my vacation and look forward to breaking some heads when I get back. So it’s win-win really.”

“We’ll be on your landing pad in ten minutes,” Goldie said. “Think you can be ready to leave then?”

“Kid, I’ve been ready to leave for the last two days,” Sali said.

—-

It wasn’t ten minutes before they landed. It was six. Six minutes of atmospheric reentry that Rassi was sure had to have burned a few layers off Goldie’s hull, but which no one was willing to argue with her about.

As promised, Sali, Tovos and the others were there waiting for them.

“Should we help them get loaded in?” Monfi asked.

“No need,” Goldie said. “I’ve got the waldos ready to drag any slowpokes in. We’re lifting off in ten.”

“Ten minutes?” Lasha asked.

“Nine. Eight. Seven,” Goldie said, which Rassi wasn’t certain was enough time for people to actually get on board, but at zero on Goldie’s countdown they did indeed lift off the platform and begin thrusting for space.

“Wow. Nix is in trouble, isn’t she?” Sali asked a few moments later when she arrived in the somewhat crowded bridge.

“No. Of course not,” Goldie said. “Out of curiosity though do they make droid restraining bolts that work on humans?”

“Believe it or not…” Sali began to say and then spied Rassi and Solna who, despite all they’d been through, she obviously mistook for being children still. “Believe it or not that’s something pirates would love to have but alas no one had perfected such a thing yet.”

Which was a lie. Not that Rassi was familiar with any tech like that, but Sali was not exactly a subtle presence in the Force.

“We need to go talk to Tovos,” Solna said, rising and wiggling past Sali to head to the cargo bay where Tovos and the others from the Enclave were still gathered.

Rassi rose to join her but was presented with the problem that Solna was able to squeeze through much tighter spaces than Rassi was.

Sali saw the problem and stepped out of the bridge to make room for Rassi to pass, nodding in solidarity from one large girl to another. They were so very different, but the small moment of understanding left Rassi pondering what her life might have been like if she’d been taken in by pirates rather than having been raised in the Enclave. 

It led her imagination to intriguing places, which kept her distracted up until she got to the cargo bay and found Tovos, Felgo, and Osdo waiting for them. Behind them Yanni and Polu where sitting with their heads pressed together and the Force swirling around them in a manner that would have led to their execution in the Enclave.

“You’re not Silent?” Rassi asked, surprised on about a dozen different levels, including the one that had noticed that Tovos’ team was still projected an Enclave silence field over them all.

“You’re not either,” Tovos said, discomfort radiating off him for only a moment before he squelched it down.

But a moment was far longer than anyone in the Enclave would have allowed themselves to disrupt the Xah.

“The Enclave never wanted us,” Solna said, shifting to stand a little closer to Rassi.

“The Elders loved you,” Tovos said. “It was her,” indicating Rassi with a twitch of his head, “that they always had problems with.”

Rassi was going to contest that, but Felgo, of all people, got to it first.

“Do you think what the Elders did was love?” he asked. “Sure, they singled Solna out as being the best in her class, but they didn’t make that a good thing did they?”

 He looked at Solna who could hide her surprise at his words.

The Felgo they knew never would have questioned the Elders. 

And never would have cut one of his juniors a break.

“We owe them an apology,” Osdo said, despite being the one who had offered Solna and Rassi the fewest hassles out of anyone in his class.

“We owe them more than apology,” Tovos said, which suggested that someone had hollowed out Tovos’ body and possessed what what left.

A better somebody than the body’s original owner apparently, and Rassi was not inclined to complain, despite how deeply weird it was to hear Tovos saying the words he was.

“What are you talking about?” she asked, trying to get a handle on the bizarre alternate universe she had apparently fallen into.

“Nix showed us everything. Everything she saw herself and everything that the Xah showed her about what the Elders had done. To us. To the people who defied them. To…” Tovos’ voice caught and Rassi felt the genuine pain and anger the flashed out from him, “To my brother. And all the others like him.”

“And you believed her?” Solna asked, as shocked by the idea as Rassi was.

“The danced a Silent Dance,” Felgo said.

“To her death,” Osdo added.

“Or close to it,” Tovos explained. “She held nothing back and ran out every bit of strength she had, so the visions she shared, they weren’t just of what the Elders had done with the Expunging Rite. We saw how they shaped and controlled us. We saw what it was like for the victims of the Expunging, and how the Elders ensured they survived the rite.”

“And we saw what idiots we’d been,” Felgo added when Tovos fell silent.

“We’ve spent the last couple of days training and planning,” Osdo said. “We couldn’t go back to the Enclave while the Elders could still control us. So we’ve been learning and practicing.”

“Nix showed us how to defend ourselves, sort of,” Felgo said.

“Sort of?” Solna asked.

“We kind of had to figure it out on our own, but she gave us tips of what to look for and how we could start trying to resist an Elder reaching out an commanding us with the Xah,” Osdo said. “She wanted us to train ourselves though so we wouldn’t lose what we have now.”

Solna shook her head. “She said pretty much the same thing to me.”

“And you learned how to shield yourself from her?” Tovos asked.

“No, from a ghost,” Solna said without offering any additional information.

Since she was no longer suppressing the Force within her though, her sincerity was easy for all present to feel.

Tovos was quiet for a moment, digesting that and searching for words if Rassi was reading him right, before he spoke.

“I’m glad you found a better teacher than the ones we had in the Enclave.” It wasn’t an apology, but it was sincere where an apology would have been a bit too hard to swallow. Only actions and time could prove that he regretted what he had done.

For the moment though, they had a larger, shared problem to resolve.

“What plan did you come up with?” Rassi asked, rather than simply saying ‘why are you here?’

“We know we’re too late to catch up to Nix and Ayli,” Tovos said. “We’d wanted to help them but we can feel that’s not where the Xah is leading us. So we’re going to go home, and put an end to the Silent Enclave.”

Ayli enjoyed being on starships, but watching a double sunset on a veranda that overlooked a sparkling silver-blue sea while a warm breeze tickled her lekku was scoring points for planetside living too.

“You know, I never planned on taking apprentices, even as a ship’s mechanic,” Nix said, plopping down into a chair beside Ayli’s. “I always figured getting people to actually do the work would be a nightmare. Now I’ve got five Force apprentices and they just won’t stop!”

Sali’s deepthroated laugh was one of evil delight.

“Is it wrong that I want to wish five more of them on her?” she asked, sipping from a surprisingly non-alcoholic mixed fruit beverage.

“Then we’d never get to enjoy her company at all,” Zindiana said, looking up from the datapad she was reading.

The ‘pirate haven’ Nix had navigated them to was quite a bit nicer than Ayli had expected it to be largely thanks to the two women they were sharing an early dinner with. 

Ayli knew Sali had setup a new empire for herself from the remains of the Klex Cartel’s holdings. What she’d expected (a lawless outpost of the sort of criminal scum Ayli felt the most at home with) was not at all the sort of fortress Sali had put together though.

The Klex ‘treasure hoard’ had been largely invested in legitimate ventures throughout the galaxy. That had kept it safe from pillaging as the Cartel fell, or at least safe from pillaging by people who were not Nuns of questionable repute and considerable skill.

Part of accessing the wealth of the Klex had required presenting a legitimate front to the concerns it was invested with, hence the Pirate Queen Saliandrus’s adoption of a more formal and less ‘murdery’ persona. 

Sali’s home was still a fortress – one the New Republic would have found challenging to assault even with a full battle group – but that security was all part of the offerings the ‘elite resort for cultured clientele’ promised.

As it turned out, a neutral location where no pirate had to worry about another pirate’s fleet blasting them to space dust was an appealing vacation destination for quite a few of the galaxy’s ruthlessly wealthy individuals. 

That Sali was making them significantly less wealthy with every service offered was a mark of prestige for the elites. That Zin was marking each and every one of them with trackers was not a service which was advertised, but rather offered gratis and without notice. The data taps into their comm channels and bank accounts were also unobtrusive and largely unused as well. 

As Sali described it, “the best space battle is the one the other side can’t afford to send any ships to,” and Ayli couldn’t find a fault with that.

“I think you were nicer as a Pirate Queen,” Nix grumbled, chomping into the plate of smoked meats and sugared berries Ayli had put together for her.

“Oh, I was,” Sali said. “See what you’ve unleashed on the galaxy when you kidnapped me away from all that?”

“Better a happy pirate than a cranky one,” Ayli said, closing her eyes to enjoy the play the breeze around her lekku. How other species ever enjoyed life with their unfeeling ‘hair’ completely escaped her at times like these.

“I was never cranky,” Sali said. “I was fearsome.”

“Fearsome and cranky,” Zin said. “They’re both good looks on you.”

“Cranky is a good look?” Nix asked between bites.

“When it’s focused on someone awful? Delightfully so,” Zin said, which struck Ayli as an odd attitude for a Nun to have, but Zin had always been an odd sort of Nun.

“So what are the gaggle of kids you brought with you doing now?” Sali asked. Sali who was older than Nix and Ayli by no more than half a decade and had only marginally more room to consider Tovos’s crew as children than Ayli did.

“Stabbing each other with their minds,” Nix said. “I was going to ask for a pallet of cerebro-stims for each of them for the headaches they’re going to have tomorrow, but it’s probably better for them to feel exactly what the cost is for overdoing it like they are.”

“As their instructor couldn’t you just tell them to stop?” Zin asked.

“And what do you mean ‘stabbing each other with their minds’? I thought your Force stuff didn’t do attacks like that?”

“It doesn’t, and I could,” Nix said. “I this case where they’re doing is listening for surface level thoughts. Sometimes people broadcast what they’re thinking, sometimes you can kind of poke past their barriers with the Force and get a sense what they’re thinking about. With these kids, it’s shockingly easy to poke through their defenses, largely because they never learned to raise the sort of mental barriers that even the most Force insensitive do.”

“So you’re having them poke each other’s thoughts to work up to being able to read more well defended people?” Zin asked.

“Not at all,” Nix said. “They don’t believe in using the Force for anything active, and certainly nothing that impacts someone else. What they’re trying to work out is how to create some defenses so that they won’t be as vulnerable to other Force users.”

“What other Force users do they have to worry about? You were saying you took care of that Lich guy right?” Sali asked, tearing a hunk of meat off the bone it was still connected to in a suitably pirate fashion. 

“We mostly just distracted him,” Nix said. “It was our friends who really destroyed him. He wasn’t the only horrible thing out there in the galaxy though.”

“You mentioned running into a group of ‘Death Shadows’ was it?” Zin asked. “I should probably get some interview notes from you on those. I don’t know that my order has encountered them before.”

“I suspect they’re a particular problem for the Silent Enclave,” Ayli said.

“Who I should also interview you on,” Zin said. “It seems unlikely that they’ve existed as long as they have without being catalogued but anything is possible.”

“More than possible in this case,” Nix said. “Given how well they can hide themselves, it’s highly likely I would say.”

“Especially since they’re quite willing to kill to maintain their anonymity,” Ayli said.

“Really?” Sali said and Ayli could hear the smile spreading across her face. “Did you bring me a troupe of hyper-elusive spies who lack any moral compunctions about eliminating their assigned targets?”

“Yes,” Nix said. “But bear in mind they’re MY hyper-elusive killer spies.”

“We have a group of killers now?” Ayli asked.

“Of course,” Nix said. “One’s I will never ask to kill anyone – in fact I plan to discourage that rather thoroughly before we find the Enclave – but it’s good to keep in mind what people are capable of and anyone who can pass as unnoticed as they can would make almost perfect assassins. Isn’t that right Polu?”

“What? How did you sense me!” the youngest of member of Tovos’ crew complained.

Ayli congratulated herself on not reaching for either her blaster (because of course she had a blaster on her, some habits she refused to let die after how many times it had saved her life) or a shower of Force Lightning (which situationally might be more useful than a blaster, but only if she felt like destroying her soul as much as her target’s body – and there was a wonderfully warm body sitting beside her who did a fantastic job at dispelling Ayli’s accumulated urges towards self-destruction).

Sali and Zin were not quite as controlled as Ayli was, but to their credit neither one pulled the triggers on the blasters which appeared in their hands.

“Please don’t shoot my ward,” Nix said with the clear knowledge that no one was actually planning to do anything of the sort.

Polu had frozen and, to his credit, was broadcasting the entirely reasonable shock of fear he was experiencing at being on the wrong end of several blaster barrels.

“That was good,” Ayli said, offering Polu the equivalent of a Force fist bump for not suppressing his emotions like he’d been taught to all his life.

“Not good enough,” Polu grumbled. “Nix still noticed me.”

Nix laughed at that.

“Polu, we just spent five hours together, practicing touching each other’s minds,” Nix said. “We’re so close in the Force at the moment I can feel the beats of your heart. If you’d waited another hour or two, I would have had a much harder time noticing you, I promise.”

“Oh. Well that makes sense.” Polu was only mollified for a moment though. “Wait, ‘harder’ just means you still could though right?”

“Yes. You’re my responsibility now, so I’ll always have a connection to you in the Force,” Nix said. “It would fade away to nothingness if I ignored you for long enough, but since I don’t plan on doing that, I’m afraid you’re stuck with me.”

“I see, I see,” Polu said. “So that’s what they meant by Jedi trickery.”

Ayli suppressed a chuckle at Nix’s frown. Which Nix then let blossom into a toothy grin.

“Did I ever say the Jedi were only ones who were tricky?” she asked innocently.

“You said we could trust you,” Polu said, with more teasing than accusation in his voice.

“Oh you can definitely trust her,” Sali said. “To do what’s right for you, whether you like it or not, ask me how I know!”

“I’m sure Polu has better things to do than listen to old pirate tales,” Nix said, paling a bit.

“Nope. Don’t think I do,” Polu said. “We never got to hear those in the Enclave. I’ve been so very sheltered. I definitely need to learn what the galaxy is really like.”

“Stars, you’ve already corrupted my daughter, is everyone I bring near you going to turn into a pirate?” Nix asked Sali.

“I didn’t turn into a pirate,” Zin said.

“Really? Are you sure about that?” Nix said, gesturing to the pirate resort which Zin was co-owner of.

“Perhaps that’s what the Force wants of you,” Ayli said to Nix. “Maybe the galaxy needs more pirates and the Force is using you to make sure it gets good ones.”

“I’m one of the ‘good ones’? That sounds insulting somehow,” Sali said.

“Of course it does,” Nix said. “Everyone knows you’re the best one.”

Sali fought a smile off with a frown and was at best partially successful at it.

“See,” Sali said, turning to Polu, “This is what you’ve got yourself tangled up with. If you ask me, working for me would be a lot easier and simpler.”

“I will keep that offer in mind!” Polu said, over Nix’s grumble. “I do have a question from the others though; were you able to send out the people you had in mind to look for the Enclave’s new location?”

One of the first things Ayli and Nix had done on landing at Sali and Zin’s Fortress/Resort was to bring them up to speed on their current adventure and Nix’s idea of using Sali’s ‘extra-legal’ contacts to track down the Enclave.

Nix’s argument had been that while the Enclave was incredibly well hidden from remote sensing via the Force, they were still a large and insular group of people with fairly specialized needs who were, notably, not self sufficient and therefor would need things like food, sanitation, and housing setup quickly, which would attract the sort of mundane, boring notice that bounty hunters and the like used to track their prey all the time.

The Enclave was worried about things like the Jedi and Death Shadows tracking them, but the Jedi had done their own investigations and, from what Ayli had read, relied rather strongly on the Force, while the Death Shadows weren’t exactly the sort of creatures who could hire a bounty hunter since, among other things, they lacked credits, voices, and the ability to form complex plans.

“No, we haven’t,” Zin said. “It turns out we didn’t need to. I’m reading through the reports now to confirm it, but one of our contacts on Selvus alerted us yesterday to a new group of travelers who showed up outside of their town and match the description of your Enclave almost perfectly.

“They setup camp on Selvus?” Polu asked.

“No. That’s what I’m looking for now,” Zin said. “From what our contact could discover they were there to purchase construction supplies and a bacta-tank. His report says they didn’t look like they were going to be staying long.”

Ayli rose from her chair in unison with Nix.

“Thank you for your hospitality as always,” she said to Sali and Zin.

“But we need to leave now,” Nix said, reaching out with the Force to Tovos and the others to hurry them towards the rapidly narrowing window available to them.

Standing in the empty shell that had once been her house, Solna felt like a vast gulf of time had passed, rather than just a few days.

“It was always this empty, wasn’t it?” Rassi asked, coming up to stand beside Solna in a manner that was somehow more comforting than any physical affection would have been.

“I hated it here,” Solna said. “I should have told you that. I don’t even know why I hid it.”

“Can you imagine what Honored Jolu would have done if she’d overheard you?” Rassi asked.

Solna had to laugh. Jolu had played the role of boogeyman for a lot of the children in the Enclave, but had taken a special interest in Rassi, and by extension Solna. Avoiding her attention had been one of the soft boundaries they’d been hemmed in by from the time they were old enough to understand that rules existed.

Despite her exalted position in their lives though, Jolu hadn’t been the true nightmare which plagued them. Her attention, if often sharp and biting, was always coupled with lessons and a chance for Rassi and Solna to redeem the mistakes they’d made.

The true boogeymen were the children that no adult saw fit to hold back from heaping abuse on Rassi and, far less often in Solna’s view, Solna too. The children weren’t alone though. There were plenty of adults who openly spoke of their eagerness for the day when Rassi would face the Trials of Silence, fail them, and cease to be a problem for the Enclave.

No one bothered to suggest that Solna would fail her trials. She was considered properly silent, noticeably more so than many of her age mates. Her defenses of Rassi was imagined to either be an eccentricity she would grow out of, or a sign of character defect so deep that she would be drawn down into the whirlpool of failure that would drown Rassi.

In theory Josta and Krelvarth should have been concerned about that. In other families, the caregivers would rise to defend their children, and would instruct them in private on how to be proper members of the Enclave. 

Josta and Krelvarth weren’t Solna’s mother and father though. They were family in that most people in the Enclave were related in some manner. The two of them had drawn the short straw for raising Solna after her mother abandoned her and ran off with a boy from a transport who might or might not have been Solna’s father. Solna didn’t think Josta would have accepted the responsibility if not for the support stipend that came with it. Krelvarth didn’t even care about that. His best quality was that as far as he was concerned Solna didn’t exist.

Solna wished more people were like Krelvarth.

“I keep expecting someone to catch us,” Solna said.

Rassi scuffed her foot on the floor. “I think they’re afraid of the reverse.”

“What do you mean?” Solna turned to study Rassi’s expression.

“Imagine if we did to them what we did to the Lich?” Rassi said, looking up to meet Solna’ gaze.

“We couldn’t though,” Solna said, puzzled at what Rassi was imagining. “They’d hear us coming the moment we landed.”

“Would they?” Rassi asked. “I know I’m loud. I can’t control myself like I should. Together though? When I’ve got you for balance?”

“That wouldn’t help?” Solna could see what would happen so clearly because there’d been so many times they’d tried to sneak off to catch a moment’s peace and so many times they’d been caught. How could Rassi think a silent assault on the Enclave would be anything but an unmitigated disaster?

“I lost track of you,” Rassi said simply.

“You what?”

“When we were sneaking past the Lich’s defenses? I couldn’t sense you. Not the whole time. And when I could, you were like the memory of a whisper.”

“So you were having problems sensing things?” Solna couldn’t make sense of what Rassi was saying. No matter how well they’d practiced their studies, neither one was ever unsure where the other was or how they were feeling.

“Not in the slightest,” Rassi said, shaking her head. “I could feel everything around us. All of the traps the Lich left. Ravas and Kelda. I could even tell where Goldie was!”

“But not me?” Solna felt an ache thud in her chest. “Did I do something wrong?”

The idea of losing her connection with Rassi was unthinkable. For as much as Solna had needed to protect Rassi over the years, there wasn’t anyone who Solna felt anywhere near as safe with.

No one else who she…

“No silly!” Rassi said, rolling her eyes and cutting off Solna’s train of thought. “You were perfect. You snuck past about a billion physical sensors and twice that many Xah constructs! And you made it look easy!”

“But you got by all of those things too?”

“I was with you.”

“But I wasn’t doing anything to cloak you. That would have been…”

It would have been a manipulation of the Xah.

The Force.

Whatever.

Solna had thought she was past that, but it turned out that a lifetime of indoctrination didn’t simply wash away cleanly in a few days.

“A corruption?” Rassi asked, a teasing tone in her voice. “Well no worries there Enclave girl. I did that all on my own.”

“What though? I mean how? You?” It would have been mean to call out Rassi like that after all of the trouble she’d had staying quiet in the Enclave, but Rassi was right. Solna hadn’t been doing anything to silence Rassi and somehow Rassi had slipped past the same traps Solna had.

“Yeah. Me,” Rassi said, one of the first prideful smiles that Solna had ever seen on her lighting up her face. “I was with you, so I could feel what you were doing.”

“You’re always with me though!”

Except she wasn’t.

The other kids tended to attack Rassi when she was alone. 

“I know, but I was always so afraid of disturbing the Xah that I was constantly fighting to be perfect. With you though, I didn’t have to be. I mean, yeah, we couldn’t really afford to mess things up, but the traps and stuff, they were fair. I was afraid of them but that was okay, so were you.”

Solna blinked. Had she been radiating fear? No. The traps would have definitely picked up on that. 

But she had been afraid.

“I could feel how you were letting your fear go, it didn’t ripple out into the Force, it just kind of blew through you like a gentle breeze.”

Was that what she’d been doing? Solna wasn’t sure, she hadn’t really been paying attention, just doing what she always did and letting…

She hadn’t been using the Force. She’d been letting it use her!

“Oh.”

“Yeah. The Enclave doesn’t know how to do that,” Rassi said. “That was all you. You invented that on the fly.”

“No. No I didn’t,” Solna said, understanding reverberating through her as memories came together and shattered more than a few long held beliefs. “It wasn’t on the fly.”

“Uh, when did you figure it out then?” Rassi asked, it being her turn to be perplexed.

“I’ve always known,” Solna said, tiptoeing through her memories. “Or I worked out how to work with the Force without being noticed long enough ago that no one questioned it.”

“Are you sure? You always passed the tests the Honored’s gave us, and they were definitely watching for things like that.”

“I passed because I was cheating!” Solna said, chuckling at the idea.

And at the idea of who she’d been. 

Or who she’d thought she’d been.

“I was never a prodigy,” she said. “I just figured out how to trick everyone in thinking I was one.”

Rassi stared at her for a good long moment.

Then she took Solna by the shoulders and looked her directly in the eyes.

“Repeat what you just said,” Rassi instructed her.

“I’m not a prodigy. I cheated.” It was an oddly freeing concept.

“So. Let me get this straight. You think that figuring out a technique as, let’s say you were five standards at the time, figuring out a technique that fooled literally everyone in the entire Silent Enclave, include Honored Jolu and Primus May His Breath Be Damned DOLON. You think figuring out a technique like that somehow indicates that you are not absurdly amazing? Is that really the line of reasoning you’re going with.”

“Yes?” Solna had to admit that Rassi’s phrasing did highlight a few weak points in Solna’s argument.

“I see. So you’re a prodigy and a tremendous idiot. Gotcha. Just wanted to make sure.”

“Shut up! And wait, what about you? Miss Woe-Is-Me-I’m-So-Bad-With-the-Xah? You just watched me and figured out how to do the same thing that I probably spent a decade working on?”

“Well, yeah, cause I was thinking about. You did it all on reflex.”

“That doesn’t make it better!” Solna wasn’t even sure which side she was arguing for anymore.

“It totally does though!” Rassi said, gripping Solna’s shoulder tighter.

Though not tight enough to hurt.

Never tight enough to hurt.

“Listen, my point isn’t that you’re amazing. That’s just a fact,” Rassi relaxed a bit as she spoke. “My point is that we’re both a lot stronger than we imagined. A lot stronger than the Enclave would ever let us imagine ourselves to be.”

“Okay, sure, I can see that,” Solna said. It was a weird idea, much too far outside the bulk of her previous experiences, but those were all suspect given the things she’d learned about herself and about the Enclave.

“I don’t think we’re alone in that though,” Rassi said. “I think what we’ve learned is what anyone who leave the Enclave can learn. I think that’s why they left. They’re afraid of us.”

Solna laughed. Rassi was being serious but she was also out of her mind if she thought that Honored Jolu was ever going to be afraid of them.

“If you look out that empty space right there where a window used to be, you might notice that what’s left of the camp has been pretty thoroughly destroyed, right? I’m going to go out on a limb and guess that the Death Shadows who did all of that might, just might, have been a slightly bigger worry than the two of us.”

Rassi smiled.

It was a smile Solna had seen before. One that said Rassi had noticed something that Solna should have too.

“Yeah. About that. You know what’s kind of funny about that? When was the last time the Enclave even caught wind of the Death Shadows being on the same planet they were on? How about the last time there was an actual attack?”

“Do we even know if there ever was an attack?” Solna said, seeing where Rassi’s argument was leading.

“Nope. I mean, let’s give Jolu at least the benefit of the doubt and say there was. Even if so though, it has been a long time since the Death Shadows found where the Enclave was staying.”

“And a day after we left, they suddenly attack in full force. Yeah. Okay that is pretty weird.”

“Not weird. Terrifying. At least to Primus Donol, and probably every other Elder. And you know what they would have to be asking themselves?”

“Whether we called in the Death Shadows before we left.”

“And if we can do it again,” Rassi said, completing her thesis.

“Did we?” Solna asked, a sick bile rising in her stomach.

“What? No. Of course not,” Rassi said. “But they can’t know that.”

“We can’t either,” Solna said. “I hated it here right? I was the one who bent the Xah so that Nix found us and flew us away. How do we know I didn’t also call down the Shadows as retribution?”

Nix awoke in Ayli’s arms. 

Which was a rather nice change of pace from the last however long it had been.

The splitting headache however suggested that things hadn’t gone quite how she’d hoped they would on their reunion.

“We’re being held captive, aren’t we?” she asked without opening her eyes.

Ayli ran her fingers through Nix’s hair.

“Yep.”

“And they stunned us.”

“Yep.”

“Even though we went along willingly.”

“Yep.”

Nix sighed.

“I remember seeing it coming and thinking ‘oh well, this’ll be less hassle than the alternative’. That wasn’t a good thought was it?” Nix also remembered angling to take a bit more of the stun blast than Ayli, which explained why Ayli had woken up before her.

Or Ayli was simply used to getting stunned. Some of the stories of her childhood that Ayli had shared with her had rather horrific elements to them and building up resistance to stun blasts, either voluntarily or involuntarily seemed like it would fit right in.

“It was the right play,” Ayli said. “Trying to shield me was kind of silly, though I do appreciate it.”

“Where are we now?” Nix asked, opening her eyes to take in their surroundings.

Or that had been the plan.

Tearing her eyes off of Ayli after they’d been apart was more challenging than Nix had anticipated.

“We’re in ‘the Brig’, or in other words an unused storeroom on the rust bucket transport they picked us up in.” Ayli continued to stroke her fingers through Nix’s hair, the gentle smile on her face almost enough to make Nix miss the silver hue Ayli’s eyes had taken on.

“How are you feeling?” Nix asked, both in terms of the residual effect from the stun blast as well as her new ocular condition.

“Like I’m right where I want to be most of all in all the galaxy,” Ayli said.

Her touch had washed away the pain from the stun-induced headache without Nix even noticing it.

“Think they’re monitoring us?” Nix asked, sneaking a kiss onto Ayli’s forearm.

“Not with cameras or sound recorders,” Ayli said. “I don’t think they need to though. They are very skilled in using the Force.”

“They call it ‘the Xah’,” Nix said. “And they’re very specialized in how they interact with it.”

She filled Ayli in on what she’d learned about the Silent Enclave from Rassi and Solna, bringing Ayli up to speed on the two new additions to their life and how things had gone so far with the two girls.

“I spoke with Solna,” Ayli said. “Briefly. She seems to have formed a bond with you pretty quickly.”

“They’re alone in the galaxy now,” Nix said.

“My, I wonder how that feels,” Ayli said with more than a trace of self-deprecation.

She and Nix had both been left to fend for themselves at too young of an age, and they were of one mind about not allowing that to happen to anyone else on their watch.

“Also I sort of danced them into accepting that they’re worthy of being cared for,” Nix said, and explained the trial that Rassi and Solna had attempted and how she’d felt it was necessary to step in.

“I’m surprised you beat them at their own game. That sounds incredibly dangerous,” Ayli said. There wasn’t accusation in her tone. She understood why Nix had done what she had, she was simply impressed it had worked.

“I wanted the win more than they did,” Nix said. “Plus I figured Goldie would get me on med-gurney and bring me back if I went too far.”

“And then you left them with Monfi to go invade a Lich’s tomb?” Ayli asked, moving on to the teasing portion of their reunion.

“That was definitely not the plan,” Nix said. “My thought process was…”

“Pretty plain to see,” Ayli said. “You wanted Goldie, Rassi, and Solna as far from Praxis Mar as possible. In case you’re wondering that was absolutely the right decision to make.”

“It seems like it paid off in the end too,” Nix said. “I could feel the moment Paralus’s phylactery was destroyed and it felt a whole lot like Rassi and Solna were the ones who did it.”

“I’m only surprised it wasn’t Ravas who got there first,” Ayli said.

“She had to have been blocked away from it. Kelda too,” Nix said. “There’s no chance they would have let the girls get anywhere near the planet, much less the tomb if they hadn’t been out of other options.”

“I’m hoping they’re not still trapped,” Ayli said. “I’ve been expecting them to drop in and check on us any time now.”

“They probably can’t find us,” Nix said, noticing the unnatural serenity in the Force around them.

“This is what happened to you when you were in the Enclave’s encampment then, isn’t it?” Ayli asked. “I was wondering about that, but it feels so benign.”

“It largely is,” Nix said. “Apart from their leadership, I think the Enclave is largely non-hostile.”

“That doesn’t seem to be the experience our two new girls had,” Ayli said.

“Social violence and neglect can be inflicted very peacefully,” Nix said. “Some of that is due to the leadership of the Enclave, and some of it is just people being horrible like people will. Rassi didn’t fit in there and her parents had ‘caused trouble’ in the past so she was forever going to be the one they dumped their frustrations and anger onto. The effects meant to be shared by all of them though? Those wouldn’t be outlets for their darker emotions.”

“I seem to be missing mine, as a note,” Ayli said.

“Your darker emotions?” Nix asked.

“My Dark Side in general,” Ayli said. “She fought Paralus for us. Let Monfi and Bopo escape.  But she lost.”

“What does that mean for you, do you think?” Nix asked. “You still feel like you’re fully you, from what I can sense.”

“Oh, I am,” Ayli said. “And I don’t think you can kill a Dark Side like that. I don’t even know what would happen if you did? I’m guessing you’d just die? In this case though it feels more like my anger, and fear, and despair, are just taking a bit of a nap. When I think about what happened to Rassi and Solna for example, I know there should be anger there, but all I feel is a bit tired and distant.”

“How about when you think about the girls themselves?” Nix asked.

“That’s much easier, and its mostly delight and anticipation,” Ayli said. “They sound so brave. I can’t wait to meet them properly.”

“Once we get this wrapped up, that’ll be our first order of business,” Nix said, imagining a dozen different scenarios for how that might play out, all with the same lingering question behind them.

“So does this mean we’re starting a family then?” Ayli asked, thinking along similar tracks to Nix.

“I…we’ve never talked about that have we?” Nix asked, self-conscious that she’d never thought about it enough to even know what her desires were up until then.

“We haven’t, largely because I don’t think it occurred to either of us that it might be something that would ever come up.”

“And, so of course, it has,” Nix said, shaking her head at how the Force seemed to be extremely adept at placing her in situations where she did not know the right answer.

Mechanics joked about wanting to have the Parts Manual for life, and Nix’s answer had always been that you wrote your own Life Parts Manual, but that answer was not exactly comforting when faced with the truly serious decisions life threw at her.

“And so it has,” Ayli said. “So are you going to ask me about it?”

“I’m trying to figure out how to phrase things so that you’re free to answer how you truly feel,” Nix said.

“I suggest using words, any of them will probably do, and then trusting that I will be honest about my feelings with you,” Ayli said, planting a quick kiss on the tip of Nix’s nose.

“You’ve already thought about this, haven’t you?” Nix asked, suspicion over how much longer Ayli had been awake forming in her mind.

“I have,” Ayli said. “But that’s not asking me about it.”

“No, no it’s not,” Nix said, a slow smile spreading across her face as an opportunity she’d been almost too slow to grasp occurred to her.

Reluctantly, she shifted out of Ayli’s arms. 

“Let’s do this properly then,” she said, rising enough to be kneeling across from where Ayli was sitting.

“Captain Ayli’wensha, would you like to make a family with me,” Nix asked.

A bright spark of joy lit up in Ayli’s eyes but before she could answer the storeroom door was thrown open and Tovos, backed by four other members of the Silent Enclave, stared at them from behind raised blasters.

Nix groaned, but Ayli just rolled her eyes.

“The time has come,” Tovos said. “We will be landing in five minutes. You will be taken to face judgment as soon as have joined the others.”

“Good, good,” Nix said, with a distinct lack of patience or kindness in her voice. “I think I’m in the mood for a bit of judgment at the moment.”

“Don’t make us stun you again,” Tovos said, shifting his grip on his blaster rifle.

“We didn’t make you stun us before,” Nix said.

“You were attempting to corrupt the Xah,” one of the other guards, Felgo, said.

“Oh? Is that the argument we’re going to have?” Nix asked.

“These probably aren’t the people we need to speak with about that,” Ayli said, laying a restraining hand on Nix’s arm.

Nix didn’t have a lightsaber. And she wasn’t going to use the Force to attack any of the people before her. Not with Force Lightning, or even with the milder Force Push. It was still good however that Ayli had reminded Nix to hold back. One does not work as a ship’s mechanic without learning how to brawl a bit after all and the sprocket heads in front of her seemed to be dearly in need of some ‘percussive maintenance’.

“You’re going to come with us,” Tovos said.

“That does seem to be the general plan,” Nix said, feeling a trifle bad for the boy.

By age, Tovos was theoretically an adult, but from a life lived inside the confines of a recluse cult, he hadn’t yet managed to develop any of the maturity that was supposed to come with adulthood. That he was in over his head was clear and Nix guessed it wasn’t a question of ‘was’ that going to drive him to bad decisions but rather ‘how many’ bad decisions he would make and ‘would Nix be able to mitigate the fallout well enough’.

That thought helped her relax a bit.

She’d been in stressful situations, and been over her head drowning in unfamiliar responsibilities before and the last thing she, or Tovos, needed was someone goading them into worse mistakes than the ones they’d make naturally.

Nix held to that thought as the junker freighter descended through an unfamiliar sky, rumbling with the thirty seven different critical repairs it needed (Nix counted) but landing safely nonetheless.

Unfortunately that was where their safety ended.

“This isn’t good,” Felgo said. “I’m not getting a beacon reading.”

“Is the new encampment set up?” Tovos asked.

“No…wait, yes, partially,” Felgo said.

“And the ships? Where are they?” Tovos asked.

“I’m not seeing anything on telemetry,” Felgo said.

“That’s because they’re not here,” another Enclave member, Bortos, said. “They cleared a landing area, but it’s empty.”

Nix looked out the viewport and saw exactly what Bortos was talking about.

It wasn’t the encampment she’d visited, but she recognized a few of the tents which had been erected. The rest of the encampment was simply missing though, and the large open area where ships could land was devoid of machinery entirely.

What lay before them weren’t ruins.

And they weren’t empty.

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Solna felt ill. Nausea twisted her stomach into shapes she had previously considered impossible. Fear, the terrible boogeyman the Jedi were certain led straight to the Dark Side, ran down her arms like spikey veins of ice. What she was about to do was evil, and wrong, and dangerous, and going to scar her forever.

Or so she’d been taught.

She had always been a good listener, she’d always been an attentive student, and she’d always absorbed the lessons her elders had provided for her.

As she and Rassi and Nulo and Moffvok took their places in the meditation circle though, she saw how little she truly believed what she’d been taught.

Or, rather, how many problems and disparities she’d seen between what was taught to her and how her elders actually acted.

Everyone was supposed to keep themselves as quiet as they could within the Xah. Everyone was supposed to obey the Enclave Elders at all time. And having or showing emotions? Emotions weren’t officially disapproved of, but emotions which led to disturbances in the Xah were shameful badges which could mark someone as being unstable, unworthy, and unwanted.

Except when they were expected. Or the person expressing them was important enough.

A boy got “rambunctious”, or fought with another boy? Well what did anyone expect? That was what boys did. They put a tidal wave into the Xah with their anger? Well I’m sure it wasn’t that bad. You’re just very sensitive, remember?

Rassi talked back to someone who was bullying her? Did she get mad? Did anyone hear anything change in the Xah? They did? Oh, she is dangerous and uncontrolled. Have to send her to remedial training again. Or maybe find some new punishment for her so she’ll learn to control herself. 

Anger and fear have an odd relationship. The flames of Solna’s anger at those memories should have melted the icy fear in her arms and stomach but instead both sensations simply burned her.

And she could not, under any circumstances, take that into the mediation.

“Are you okay?” Rassi asked, taking Solna’s hand before their shared meditation could begin.

“Yeah, I just need a moment,” Solna said, feeling her past crashing over her again and again.

“She’s upset,” Nulo said, without any notes of judgment in her voice.

“We’ve had a long day,” Rassi said.

“Perhaps you might want to wait until you’ve rested then?” Kelda’s suggestion sounded wise to Solna, except for the part where the value of their message to Ms. Ayli was diminishing as time passed.

“I’ll be fine,” Solna said. “I just don’t want to bring any corrupt Xah, uh, I mean Dark Side influence, into what we’re doing.” 

Referring to the Xah as the Force felt decidedly weird. Saying it in Shyriiwook would probably have felt less dishonest. Intellectually, she knew with absolute certainty that what Nix and the other Force Users worked with was the same thing she was trained to listen to. She’d felt how the Xah moved in response to their manipulations of it and there couldn’t be any doubt.

A lifetime of thinking of it as the Xah was not so easily abandoned though. Not even when she was growing rapidly more grateful than Rassi had possessed the courage to abandon the Enclave and the kindness to make sure they both got away together.

Moffvok growled in a contemplative manner. Solna couldn’t speak Shyriiwook at all but between listening to the actual sound of Moffvok’s words and leaving herself open to the Xah, Solna felt like she was able to capture a little more than just the general mood the Wookie was expressing.

“He says maybe don’t completely suppress the Dark Side,” Nulo translated for them.

“Suppressing our Dark Sides rarely works out well,” Kelda, of all people, said.

“What she means is that we were taught to confront our Dark Sides,” Ravas explained when she saw the confusion on the kids faces. “Struggling to resist it was seen as a losing battle.”

“Because it usually is,” Ravas said. “Though even in our time, I think we saw a lot of people who used ‘confronting their Dark Side’ as an excuse to simply deny it.”

“So, wait, what are we supposed to do then?” Rassi asked. Because Rassi had such a messy relationship with the Xah that she would probably both try and refuse any ideas which were offered to her. Which was just impossible to deal with.

No.

Solna focused a moment on her breathing. 

Rassi was not the problem.

The people they’d been surrounded by, they were the problem.

Solna had suspected that since she was able to form words and had known it for far longer than she was willing to admit to herself. Even light years away from them, she could still feel the weight of Enclave pressing down on her and smothering the things she knew to be true.

Rassi was amazing.

There.

That was something the Enclave could never make her deny.

Rassi was amazing and Solna knew she could prosper with the training she could get outside the Enclave. She knew that and she was going to trust that Rassi would find a way to believe it too.

“Recognize what’s inside you,” Ravas said. “My Dark Side didn’t appear the moment I chose to cast the Jedi aside and become a Sith. And it hasn’t disappeared since I left the Sith behind.”

“And being a Jedi didn’t mean I was mystically free of angry impulses, or fearful ones,” Kelda said. “When I was at peace though, I could see those impulses for what they were.”

“What about when anger is all you can feel?” Solna asked, still feeling the fires of rage lurking around the memories of the Silent Enclave.

“Admit that,” Kelda said. “When we’re angry, or afraid, we wind up thinking all sorts of things that seem so right and natural in the moment. Admitting that you’re terrified though is the first step to recognizing that you’re not thinking clearly.”

“What’s the next step?” Rassi asked.

“Letting go,” Ravas said. “Which does not mean what you think it does.”

“It’s not forgetting,” Nulo said, repeating what Solna suspected was the official Horizon Knight teaching on the matter.

“And it’s not telling yourself that you shouldn’t be bothered by what your feeling,” Ravas said. “That’s a very easy trap to fall into.”

“Letting go, in this context, is as much about giving yourself permission to feel whatever you feel, while also stepping back and finding the distance to see that fear, anger, despair, those are only feelings. They can be a natural response to the stimuli we’re under but they only have the power that we give them, and they never need to dictate our actions.”

“Master Lasha said if we’re afraid, the Force will show us where the danger is and our job is to survive it,” Nulo said. “But that to do that we need to protect ourselves, not lash out and leave ourselves open to mistakes or counter attacks.”

“And once your survival isn’t on the line?” Kelda asked. “When your in your bed at night and the monster you fought that day is still the center of memories which won’t let you go?”

“I don’t know,” Nulo said. “I think we’re supposed to go talk to her then.”

“Sharing with others can be a powerful tool for letting go,” Kelda said. “And you shouldn’t need to be exposed to the kind of things that will give you nightmares.”

“No one should,” Ravas said. “But it happens anyway. Not facing those things alone though? That will save you so much trouble in the long run.”

“You know that’s why Lasha and Monfi are asking you to sit this one out, right?” Kelda said.

Moffvok growled.

“They want to keep us safe,” Nulo said.

“Even if we can help,” Solna said.

“Do you know the kind of people who use the young and inexperienced to make their battles easier?” Ravas asked.

“Was that a Jedi thing?” Solna asked, aware that she might be giving offense with the question but she felt like the teaching that Jedi stole people’s children was one that had to have some basis in truth.

“Before a Padawan could first accompany their master on a mission, their mastery of the Force was tested rigorously, as was their maturity, and their desires for the kind of service they wished to pursue,” Kelda said.

“The Jedi didn’t all run around killing people with lightsabers, did they?” Rassi asked.

“In our day, the Jedi almost never took someone’s life,” Kelda said. “That was something that changed when the last war broke out, and even then there were still archivists, and medics, and diplomats who never so much as lit the blade of their lightsabers.”

“Oh,” Solna said. The idea of a Jedi being someone who was responsible for chronicling things filling a void she’d never know she had.

Oddly it made what they were about to do seem better too.

After all, why shouldn’t they talk to the Xah? If the Xah could be ‘corrupted’ by every passing thought and stray emotion then everyone would be twisting it into Dark Side nexuses all over the place. 

A deep ache had always lurked in Solna’s soul. She wanted to understand her world. She wanted to understand the people in it and the places and the history of everything that had gone before her.

Staying forever silent though meant never asking for those answers. It meant never ‘bothering’ the world with the fact of her existence.

It meant never being able to recognize how the Elders were using her for their own ends. 

“You said I shouldn’t suppress my anger,” she said as a fresh fire kindled in her. “But what if I don’t want to walk away from it. What if what they did shouldn’t be forgiven?”

She didn’t elaborate on who ‘they’ were. Rassi knew she was talking about the Elders and everyone else could sense her meaning in the Xah. 

“Ah, righteous anger,” Kelda said. “That can be the most seductive and the most destructive.”

“Much like the fear of real peril, those feelings are serving their purpose,” Ravas said. “They spur us to action and help us unleash strengths we would normally hold in reserve.”

“All while stripping us of the ability to exercise restraint where it’s warranted,” Kelda said.

“Which is why the key to letting those go is to earn your own trust,” Ravas said.

“The urge to action anger gives us is meant to goad us to action. We don’t want the conditions which spurred the anger to repeat again. Anger can show us that, but we don’t need anger to tell us how to address the problem its brought to our attention.”

“Anger is excellent at raising alarms, and terrible at handling their causes,” Ravas said.

“So we have to earn the trust of ourselves. That gives us an answer to our angers and our fears. We can believe that we will act without anger or fear to guide us once we’ve proven to ourselves that we can. “

“That sounds like it’s a lot harder to do than to say.” Rassi had her own angers (too few in Solna’s opinion) and fears (too many and too well founded). 

“It is,” Ravas said. “I’m still trying to get the hang of it in fact.”

“As am I,” Kelda said. “Which is good. None of us will ever be or should ever be perfect. But we get better through practice, and we learn as we go.”

“You’ll make mistakes,” Ravas said. “Trust that you’ll learn from them and that tomorrow you’ll be a little better than today.”

Solna tried looking at her anger at the Enclave in those terms. She couldn’t forget it, and she couldn’t put it aside, but she was able to believe that her future self wouldn’t let her down. She would deal with the Enclave at some point, and she wouldn’t do so in a mindless rage.

Whatever the Enclave deserved, she was better than that.

“Let’s let Ms. Ayli know that helps on the way then!” she said, opening her mind and touching the Xah as deeply as it touched her.

The problem with searching for ships that have fallen out of hyperspace is that there is a rather large area to look for them in. By Nix’s calculation if they flew an optimal search pattern over the space between Ayli’s last known position and the spot where they had definitely lost track of her, they’d complete their search somewhere around the heat death of the universe, plus or minus a few billion years.

That was why she didn’t let Goldie drive.

“Why are we flying towards a system we know they weren’t going to?” Goldie asked.

“I don’t know,” Nix said, leaning into the meditative bond she was sharing with Rassi and Solna. “This is just where we need to go.”

“I hope you’re right,” Lasha said over the comms. “I’m not reading any signs of an active drive anywhere in this system.”

“Me neither,” Goldie said.

“I know. But we’ll find something here,” Nix said. The Force wasn’t being overly helpful in terms of explaining what she was going to find, but it was giving enough of a pull that Nix was certain something important awaited her. Something which needed her sooner rather than later.

“The ship sensors may not be detecting anything, but there is something out there,” Ravas said. “Something cloaked in the Dark Side.”

Nix’s pulse quickened.

Ayli! 

“I don’t think it’s the ship we’re looking for though,” Ravas said. “This doesn’t feel strong enough to be a nexus. It’s more like a lingering shadow.”

“Does this lingering shadow have a set of coordinates?” Goldie asked, electronic frustration sounding remarkably similar to the organic variety.

“The Force doesn’t work like that,” Nix said and punched in the coordinates for the shadow that Ravas had brought to her attention. “But I do.”

To be fair to the Force, it was helpful in directing her hands as they punched in the location they needed to get to, but Nix guessed that was only because she understood the controls and the mathematical concepts they expressed. On it’s own the Force gave more “over there-ish” sort of directions when it wanted her to move somewhere in particular.

“I’m not…” Lasha started to say and cut herself short. “Wait. Monfi! He’s there and someone else is too.”

That should have set Nix’s heart a flutter.

But she knew the other person wasn’t Ayli.

“Best speed to get to them Goldie,” Nix said, pushing back on the concern those rose in her chest. 

She wasn’t going to find Ayli, but she was going to be taking a step close to her.

As it turned out, that step was a more rapid one than she’d anticipated as Goldie performed a millisecond long hyperspace jump to flash across the distance in an instant. Various alarms and warning went off and Nix groaned at the thought of the extra maintenance the hyperdrive was going to need. She didn’t scold Goldie though, or even mention it. When Nix had said best speed, she’d meant it. 

“What do you see there?” Lasha asked a moment later when the ship comms synced back up.

“It’s a shuttle,” Nix said. “It’s got Imperial markings on it but it’s not in great shape.”

“I’ve got two life signs on board,” Goldie said.

“Bring the shuttle into the hold,” Nix said. “Lasha if you want to dock up when you get here, we’ll have Monfi in our med room, if he needs it.”

“He probably will, the idiot,” Lasha said, expressing more affection in her reproach than a Jedi ever would have.

Or, well, most Jedi. The one actual example Nix had was an anomaly even by her own admission.

“Let’s go meet our new guests,” Nix said, rising from the pilot’s chair and heading towards the Goldrunner’s cargo hold.

“Do we need to worry about how warped the Xah is around that ship?” Solna asked, the first to tag along.

“It feels like its changing?” Rassi asked from behind her.

“It is,” Ravas said. “The cloak it wore was a borrowed one. Once we found what was underneath it, the shadow of the unknown faded.”

“So it’s not a danger to us?” Rassi asked.

“That depends if the owner left any nasty surprises inside for whoever found it,” Kelda said.

“No. We’re safe,” Nix said, feeling the wispy remnant of Ayli’s touch on the ship. “She sent this to us. She sent them to us.”

“I’ve got the override for the locks worked out,” Goldie said.

“Pop it open then,” Nix said and stepped back to avoid the gust of exhaust gasses Imperial shuttles often vented after they’d been sealed tight.

One of Goldie’s remotes tapped on the control panel beside the shuttle’s main access port and moved aside to give Nix a clear view into the ship.

A clear view which showed a human male and a Galruxian female both collapsed onto the shuttle’s deck.

“Coming through!” Goldie said as another four remotes scuttled past Nix to begin applying medical aid to the fallen humanoids.

“What happened to them?” Rassi asked.

“As a guess? Darsolys Gas poisoning,” Nix said.

“Did the Force tell you that?” Goldie asked, “Because that’s exactly what I’m reading here.”

“Not the Force,” Nix said. “Darsolys gas is one of the components used in shield systems on Imperial shuttles. If you’re extra paranoid about your shuttle being stolen, it’s also the easiest thing to rig to vent into the cabin, and since it’s non-lethal to most species, one of the better traps to put in something that you might want up triggering yourself.”

“Why are they in a trapped ship though?” Solna asked.

“Ayli put them there,” Nix said on pure intuition.

“She wanted to get them to safety,” Ravas said. “Clever really.”

“How so?” Rassi asked.

“People fleeing from a cruiser in a shuttle are rather unlikely to escape. Either the cruiser will tractor them back on board or the turbo laser batteries will reduce the ship to fine particles,” Kelda said. “If Ayli put them here, then she found a means to get them to safety which could not have been easy under the circumstances.”

“I suspect I know how she did it,” Nix said, hating that her guess almost had to be the correct one.

“She traded herself for them,” Ravas said.

“Yep,” Ayli said, neither surprised, nor disappointed. A part of her even felt a measure of pride in the generosity of her wife’s spirit. A far larger part however wanted to throttle Ayli for thinking throwing herself away to save others was always the play to go for.

Throttling wouldn’t help of course.

But it was still tempting.

“Ugh, why does my mouth taste like I’ve been drinking petrol?” Monfi asked as the treatment Goldie performed brought him back to consciousness.

Goldie had moved the shuttle’s two passengers out of the shuttle and had a roving air purification droid clearing away the remnants of the Darsolys gas that remained in the shuttle.

“After effects of the knockout gas you were hit with,” Nix said. “With the antagonist injection Goldie gave you, the side effects should fade in a few minutes.”

“My thanks to Goldie and yourself,” Monfi said, clearing his eyes and amending, “yourselves” when he saw the others who were gathered around. “You must be Nix?”

“That does seem to be my lot in life,” Nix said. “How did you know though?”

“Your friend and I have met before,” Monfi said, nodding towards Kelda, who nodded back.

“Your partner will be here shortly,” Kelda said.

“Oh, you found Lasha, wonderful,” Monfi said. “And there don’t seem to be any injuries from what I can see? Even better.”

“Do you know what happened to Ayli?” Rassi asked, the impatience of youth a blessed relief to Nix’s ears.

“She went back,” Bopo said, having been roused as well. “She flung me onto the ship and tossed us out of it to get us to safety.”

“Well, a measure of safety,” Monfi said. “We’d just about cleared the cruiser’s exterior when the shuttle gassed us.”

“That probably saved your lives,” Ravas said. “Once the ship had you disabled, you wouldn’t have registered as a threat to the cruiser’s sensors.”

“It wasn’t the ship who saved us,” Bopo said. “It was your wife. She said you’d know where to find her too.”

Nix inhaled and was silent for a moment.

Of course she knew where to find Ayli.

She’d known they were going to return to Praxis Mar someday ever since the moment they’d left it.

This was not the right moment though.

They hadn’t trained enough. They hadn’t learned enough about the Force.

They hadn’t had enough time together.

“Permission to board?” Lasha asked over the comms.

“Granted,” Nix said, largely perfunctorily as Goldie was already opening the hatches for Lasha and her two apprentices.

Monfi rose to greet his partner as she entered the cargo hold, but Lasha gave him little more than an eye roll and went to the shuttle.

“Hah!” she said. “I was right!”

“About what?” Nix asked.

“This isn’t the first cloaked ship I’ve had to hunt down,” Lasha said. “The Lich thinks he’s so terribly clever, but like most smart people, he’s deeply, deeply stupid as well.”

“Can we make use of that?” Nix asked.

“That depends,” Lasha said. “Do you think we could do something useful with the Lich’s phylactery?”

“His what?” Solna asked, staring at the shuttle as though something might leap out of it at her.

“An item he’s bound to,” Monfi said. “It’s what hold his connection to the living world.”

“Do you have those?” Rassi asked Kelda and Ravas.

“We’re not Liches,” Ravas said.

“It’s more than ‘an’ item though,” Lasha said. “It’s the item. So long as it exists, he can never be fully banished or destroyed.”

“And you can find it? With the shuttle?” Nix asked.

“Yes. Definitely,” Lasha said, triumph alight in her eyes.

“Where is it?” Rassi asked.

“I have no idea,” Lasha said. “But with this, I don’t need to.”

“You think you can follow the traces of his power that remain on the shuttle back to their ultimate source?” Ravas said.

“I know I can,” Lasha said. “We followed an Unsubtle to his next victim from one of the knives he left behind. The Lich presents itself completely differently in the Force, but the same threads of malice are there and those can only lead to the heart of his power.”

“It will be well protected if you’re right,” Kelda said.

“I don’t think it will be,” Ravas said. “Think like someone swallowed by the Dark Side. Who would you trust to guard the heart of your existence?”

“No one,” Kelda said.

“Someone I had absolute control over,” Nix said and was surprised when the others turned to look at her. “What? I know it’s stupid, but that’s what we’re predicating this whole endeavor on. Arrogance and poor decisions are like the two primary hallmarks of Dark Side Force users.”

“Both of those take a distant second to paranoia,” Ravas said.

“So they’re evil for being afraid?” Solna asked.

“Not in the slightest,” Ravas said. “Everyone is afraid, some people almost all the time. A Dark Side user’s paranoia is founded in guilt over what they’ve done and the fear that the power they’ve stolen will be stolen from them. Where other people will suffer through the fears, or rise above them, a Sith, or other Dark Sider, will let their fears swallow them and distort them away from any rational view of the galaxy. Fear becomes everything and sublimates into an anger which can only be assuaged by the suffering of others.”

“That doesn’t sound healthy,” Rassi said.

“The Dark Side is a sickness,” Lasha said. “Which is why we must fight it before it spreads.”

“You’re right,” Nix said. “Tracking down Paralus’ phylactery is the only path to defeating him permanently. It had to be done.”

“Then we don’t want to waste time,” Lasha said. “The longer we wait, the more faint the traces of the Lich’s power over this shuttle will grow.”

“Then we need to trade ships quickly,” Nix said.

“Trade? Why?” Lasha asked.

“Because you all need to find Paralus’ phylactery, and I need to find my wife.”

The Shadowed Cave has many names. Ayli had come across a few of them in the records which remained in the Jedi Temple. For an order of wise and peaceful monks, the Jedi were surprisingly adept a coming up with scathing epithets, and more than a few of them had included warnings to those who came after of the dangers the Shadowed Cave posed. 

“Is this really a good idea?” Ayli asked, stepping over the rocks and runoff which had all but completely swept away the path down to the shore where the cave’s entrance lay.

“That will depend on you,” Kelda said. As a Force Ghost the detritus on the path didn’t slow her in the slightest, but she maintained a leisurely pace to match Ayli’s careful steps.

“I feel like I should point out that I don’t exactly have a spotless history when it comes to dealing with areas where the Dark Side is particularly strong,” Ayli said, an agitated hum buzzing down her veins.

“That doesn’t mean you are especially vulnerable to its influence,” Kelda said. “If anything, you’ve proved the reverse.”

“How? I’ve spent months meditating and I still can’t quiet my mind at all when it drags me back to Paxis Mar.”

“You’re still blaming yourself for what happened there,” Kelda said.

“Not all of it, just the parts I’m responsible for.” That it had been her idea to pursue the the lost temple of the Children of the Storm made, in Ayli’s mind, her responsible for more or less all of what happened to some extent, but she knew sharing that wasn’t going to be a winning argument.

Kelda gave her a half frown, half smile which said she was all too aware of what Ayli’s thoughts on the matter were, but her response wasn’t the denial Ayli had anticipated.

“There’s a curious knot we can tie ourselves into there,” Kelda said. “And oddly it’s one that those who are more fully swallowed by the Dark Side manage to avoid.”

“Why do they always get the easy answers to things?” Ayli grumbled, slipping on a bit of loose stone as she did.

“Because easy answers ignore contradictions,” Kelda said. “Accepting them often requires blinding ourselves to where they fall short. They offer comfort at the cost of swallowing a lie which will never fully sustain us.”

“Sometimes we need those lies though don’t we? That things will work out. That we’ll be okay even when we know we won’t be?”

“Ah, but which is the lie there?” Kelda asked. “You’ve felt how the Force flows through us, and you’ve seen how the futures it shows us can change. Is it a lie to believe that there’s still hope us to see tomorrow, or is the lie that hope is dead and only darkness awaits us?”

“I don’t know,” Ayli said and was rewarded with a warm smile from Kelda.

“And that’s why I maintain that you are more resilient to the Dark Side’s influence than you imagine yourself to be.”

“Because I’m clueless?” Ayli asked, wondering how much of what Kelda said was Force Ghost wisdom and how much was simply tangled nonsense intended to lead her to figuring out the answers for herself.

“Because you can admit when you don’t know something,” Kelda said, apparently in a an ernest teaching mode. “When an active Jedi Knight, I fought a number of Force users who’d been lured into using the Dark Side. How many do you think believed they were in the wrong to do so?”

“I’m going to say very few of them.”

“That is because you are a very smart woman. Who is correct in this case. In fact you could only be more correct if you’d said ‘none of them’. Each and every sapient I ran across who was using the Dark Side, believed the reason for their anger was righteous, and their fears were justified. The excuses they had for treating other sapients as objects or obstacles? Of course those were unquestionable. Or if they did question them it was only the thinnest facade of introspection which only strengthened their certainty that they, and often they alone, were following the true path, and that the consequences of their choices were entirely acceptable, regardless of the suffering others endured as a result.”

“So being clueless really is a good thing then?” Ayli asked, knowing that wasn’t Kelda’s point.

“Being capable of admitting when we don’t know something is a good thing. A critical thing really as we’re most in peril from the things we don’t know that we don’t know, and being honest about as much of the unknown as possible can help us tread carefully when we’re out of our depth.”

Ayli chuffed out a short laugh, and pushed aside a stand of tall grasses to reveal the old path to the shore which remained mostly intact.

“It’s funny how that’s true in archeology too,” she said, “Except academics hate admitting where we don’t know things. We’re supposed to be open minded and always ready to evaluate new ideas but if I’ve seen fist fights break out at conferences when people presented conflicting talks on the same subject.”

“As sapients, we enjoy the rare gift of understanding the world around us. Our astoundingly frequent choice to ignore or misuse that gift I believe is the proof that we are also possessed of free will.”

“Is that the curious knot we can tie ourselves into? Being stupid to prove that we’re independently intelligent?” Ayli asked.

“Oh, that’s an amusing though, but not what I’d had in mind,” Kelda said. “No, the knot I was referring to related to the shame you feel over your actions on Praxis Mar.”

“It’s good that I feel bad about that?”

“No, and yes, and no,” Kelda said and offered Ayli a teasing smile. “How’s that for a Jedi answer for you?”

“Terrible. So exactly what some of the Padawan journal suggested I should expect.”

“As someone who wrote, and then destroyed, far more scathing journal entries than the ones you’ve read, allow me to assure you that those accounts are universally true. The Jedi Masters I knew could be unimaginably frustrating.”

“I’m not sure you’ve quite got it down yet then,” Ayli said. “I think you’re not supposed to admit that for one thing.”

“Probably not,” Kelda said with a shrug, “But I did give up being a Jedi.”

“So this is substandard teaching, got it,” Ayli said. 

“Well, I am a bit past my expiration date,” Kelda said to which Ayli simply groaned.

“That really was terrible.”

“Ravas would agree with you. She always hated my sense of humor.”

“I somehow doubt that,” Ayli said. “I’ve gotten peeks into her mind remember.”

“I’d say I’m jealous, or express my condolences, but mostly I’m curious how much of yourself you saw reflected there?”

“Quite a lot,” Ayli said. “I’m guessing that’s why she chose me.”

“And why you chose her,” Kelda said. “Sometimes we need those who understand us to shake us loose from the limits we’ve put on ourselves.”

“I think the both of us might have shaken off a few limits we probably should have kept,” Ayli said. “The moment we started working together, we did go just a little bit berserk after all.”

“And you both came back from it,” Kelda said. “For Nix and I.”

“I am so lucky to have found her,” Ayli said.

“And she you,” Kelda said. “The same with Ravas and I. Which, if I’d understood that even about five minutes earlier than I did would have spared all of us the long and painful path we’ve walked to get here.”

“I’m glad you were ignorant then,” Ayli said. “I’m not happy with what I did, but this feels like where I should be.”

“And that’s the far side of the knot,” Kelda said.

“Is there any chance you’ll just explain what you mean, or is it something I need to figure out for myself?” Ayli asked, as the Shadowed Cave grew closer.

“In the interest of putting you on a better path than the one Ravas and I walked, yes, yes I will,” Kelda said. 

She gestured for Ayli to take a seat on an ancient stump, while she herself floated onto a large rock beside the trail down to the shore.

“On Praxis Mar, you and Ravas were put in mortal danger and responded by drawing on your fear and rage. You struck out against your enemy and against someone you cared for. As sins go, that’s relatively light, but for you those memories are colored by the sense of how much you wished to destroy everything and how out of control you felt. You remember what you wanted to do as much as what you actually did and it feels so much worse because you feel like that is who you truly are. Is that roughly correct?”

“Roughly,” Ayli said, by which she meant ‘exactly’.

“Had you actually killed Nix, those feelings would have been the same, though you might have buried them more or embraced them more fully. In any case though, you would be left with the question of who you wanted to be in the wake of what you’d done and what you believed yourself capable of doing from there.”

“If I’d killed her, I don’t know I would have been able to do much more than destroy myself too,” Ayli said.

“That’s a comforting thought to cling to, imaging that past some moral event horizon we would self administer a severe enough punishment to make the universe just and whole again,” Kelda said. “In many cases though, the Dark Side amplifies the users anger to where they can believe any excuses they can dream up. Is there any reason Nix might have deserved it? Was it an unfortunate accident but ultimately necessary for you to achieve a more important aim? Those who are ‘lost’ to the Dark Side are lost because they refuse to acknowledge what they’ve done. They feel no shame, or remorse because they become so wrapped up in themselves that they can ignore what they’ve done and what they’ve become.”

“Which is why being able to feel shame and regret is a good sign,” Ayli said. “It means I’m not crawling inside my own head.”

“Shame can be its own refuge, if that’s as far as it goes,” Kelda said. “That’s the knot. On the one hand is denial, which cuts us off from our capacity to accept what we’ve done and move forward. On the other there’s shame, or sorrow, which locks us into a different spiral, where all we want is to dwell on what we’ve done. In neither case, ignoring our past, or dwelling in it, can we progress.”

“Accepting where I’m at now feels a little unfair though. If I just forget about it, it feels like I’ll be that much more likely to trip up again.”

“That’s the challenge we face,” Kelda said. “Accepting what we’ve done without getting lost in it, or forgetting it. Making amends, if we can, can help with that, but that’s not always possible.”

“I’ve heard Ravas mention that. I gather it’s hard to make amends for something done so long ago that no one living remembers it.”

“It’s something we’re working on,” Kelda said. “In your case things are a simpler, though I doubt they feel like that.”

“No, you’re right,” Ayli said. “I remember the brushes I had with her memory. For as bad as I feel, I know she’s got it a lot worse. She’s been really helpful in fact. Seeing her turn things around makes it a lot easier to believe I won’t lose it again either.”

“I think that’s something she’d like to hear,” Kelda said as they arrived at the entrance to the cave.

“So, was this the lesson I was supposed to learn in the cave?” Ayli asked, a part of her hoping she wouldn’t have to venture inside it.

“The cave has something else to show you,” Kelda said. “It holds what you bring in with you.”

“So all the awfulness. Great.”

“Exactly. You’ll find your worst self waiting in there for you,” Kelda handed a lightsaber over to Ayli. “Go on in there and take care her.”

Nix wasn’t surprised when Ayli scoffed at the threat of being Force Lightninged. In reality Nix had several better alternatives, and calling on the Force for things like that tended to amplify the worst parts of anyone’s psyche.

Nix was however being quite sincere.

Zapping Ayli into unconsciousness was a last resort, but it was a resort. It would leave Nix feeling terrible,which was a small price to pay compared to losing her wife to violent mania.

Not that Nix had plans to zap her wife. Or any plans at all really.

There was something out there for them, but their future was elusive and unset. 

“I think I can get used to being your monster if it comes with head massages like this,” Ayli said and stretched in a manner that banished any thoughts of zapping her or causing any other harm at all.

“So long as you come back to me,” Nix said and pressed another kiss to Ayli’s forehead.

“You’ve got to promise me one other thing though,” Ayli said.

“What’s that?” Nix asked, her mind filling with a gentle hunger for the woman in her lap.

“I’ll come back to you, but only if you promise me that you’ll leave me,” Ayli said.

Nix had been ready for a number of requests but that was not one of them.

“I’m not quite sure how that works?” she said at last, studying Ayli’s upside down face for some clue as to what she was thinking.

“Don’t stay with me if I hurt you again. Don’t stay with me if I’m a danger to you. If I lose myself like I was going to there, if I turn into a screaming Force Lighting Dark Side beast, I can’t be allowed to hurt you. I can’t bear the idea of hurting you. You say you love me, but don’t love me in spite of what I do. You’re worth more than that. You deserve someone who…”

“Do not say ‘someone who’s better for you’,” Nix cut Ayli off with a whisper and another kiss.

“I know,” Ayli said. “This isn’t me either. I’m not usually so….so…”

“Weak?” Nix suggested.

“Exactly.”

“You’ve had a ridiculously stressful few weeks, you bonded with a living ghost and used the Force to amplify your rage to the point where it could split rock, and we only barely escaped an exploding continent thanks to you flying the spaceship equivalent of a bathtub through a tornado. If I told you about a woman like that would you be willing to cut her a few breaks? Maybe give her the benefit of the doubt that she wasn’t quite at her best for any of that?” Nix asked.

“Yes, but…”

“But it felt miserable. Anger came so easily afterwards. It’s even still there. Everything I’m saying is at least a little bit annoying and part of you wants to grab my ears and just scream?”

Ayli’s only response was silence for a long moment.

“How can you love that?” she finally asked in a small voice.

Nix gathered her into a long hug.

“How could I not when it comes with all the rest of you?” she asked. “And before you object to that, I just want you to consider two things. First, how much it means that despite everything you’ve been dealing with, you’re still here, with me, when you could have just given up or run away, and second, I want you to ask yourself how I know what you’re going through.”

Ayli stared at Nix for a while.

“You’re reading my mind with the Force?” Ayli asked at last.

No. This what communicating through the Force feels like, Nix called out with her mind, causing Ayli’s eyes to open wide in shock.

“Then how?” Ayli asked, her brow furrowing.

“Because I’ve been there too,” Nix said. “Like I said, we need to learn more about each other. In this case, I’d like you to imagine how a young girl who’s as close to the Force as I am might handle things like being left alone in the world. Or people trying to hurt her. Or just being hungry and tired and out of patience.”

“Poorly,” Ayli said, a note of too-familiar pain in her voice. “She would have handled it poorly.”

“That is an excellent description of my childhood,” Nix said. 

“You used the Dark Side as a kid?” Ayli asked.

“I guess so? I didn’t know that’s what I was doing but, looking back, all the ‘accidents’ people had? The occasional blackouts when I was screaming my head off? The sheer joy at seeing the people I was mad at suffer? That feels very in line with the echoes I felt on Praxis Mar,” Nix said.

“But you’re not like that now? How?” Ayli asked.

“I am like that,” Nix said. “I think everyone is. How we chose to act though doesn’t have to be driven by our feelings.”

“I thought using the Force was all about listening to our feelings?” Ayli said.

“Sure. We listen to the Force, and the Force often speaks through our feelings. Listening to something and acting on everything we think it says are two different things though. Sometimes our feelings are just our own. Sometimes they’re not even that. Sometimes we can absorb a bad mood from the people around us. Or from the stress of a situation we’re in. Acting on those and following where the Force wants to lead us are two very different things though.”

“I’m not sure how you can tell the difference,” Nix said.

“I can’t,” Nix said. “Not always. When I’m calm though? That makes it a lot easier.”

“I don’t seem to be great at staying calm,” Ayli said.

“Were you great at piloting ships when you were learning to walk?” Nix asked.

“That’s not the same thing,” Ayli said.

“Isn’t it? We’re both new to consciously using the Force,” Nix said. “Right from the beginning. you were hit with challenges that were more than a Jedi Master could handle – just look at how things turned out for Kelda. You can’t imagine that what you’ve done so far is the best you can possibly do. Everything you do from here will have the benefit of what you’ve learned so far. You’ll remember not only that you can use the Dark Side, but also what it costs you to do so.”

“I should keep arguing with you,” Ayli said, a contented purr in her voice.

“Still not convinced?” Nix asked.

“No. I just want to keep you here, like this, for as long as I can.”

“Well, we don’t need to argue for that,” Nix said, kissing Ayli’s forehead and bending further to kiss her nose and then her lips.

——-

Dinner time rolled around eventually and found Nix and Ayli heading to the mess hall on the conscripted Battle Cruiser.

“She’s awake!” Sali said as Nix and Ayli took seats at the Captain’s table.

“Am I going to regret that?” Ayli asked, grabbing a plate of rolls for Nix.

“I don’t know,” Sali said. “Do you have my cut of the fabulous planetary treasure horde tucked away somewhere?”

“I’ve probably got a few pebbles stuck to my boots,” Alyi said. “I’m guessing that’s all we escaped from Praxis with?”

“Technically we also have a new ship too,” Goldie said.

“That one didn’t look like it was in such good shape last I saw it,” Sali said.

“I’ll be happy to take it then if you don’t want it?” Goldie asked.

“That sounds good,” Zindiana said. “Except I think I’d like to inspect the cargo holds first.”

“The techs said they were empty,” Goldie said.

“And the hidden cargo holds?” Zindiana asked.

“Oh. Uh. Those haven’t been checked yet,” Goldie said and Nix had to smile. Out-pirating Sali or Zindiana was going to take a lot more experience than Goldie’d had a chance to accumulate in her short life span since she became sapient.

“I think I’ll be heading down there right now then,” Sali said. “Would hate for anyone to misplace the contents of a hold or two.”

“Hey! I’ve got monetary needs to you know!” Goldie said.

“Just how trashed is the Goldrunner?” Ayli asked.

“It’s repairable,” Nix said, excited at the prospect of the work she’d get to do on it. There were so many improvements that required a full ship tear down to put in place and the Goldrunner was two half broken bolts away from the tear down part being done already.  “We might need to stop over at the Berzan Scrapyards are some place like it though. Give me about a month there and I can get the Goldrunner back in proper shape.”

“A month and how many credits?” Ayli asked.

“If we stop at Berzan? Maybe none?” Nix said. “I know one of the Scrapper Bosses. She’ll probably let me trade some repair work on her ships for the parts we need.”

“I can help!” Goldie said.

“Is that you’re next destination then?” Zindiana asked.

“We haven’t talked about it yet,” Nix said, taking a sip from the bowl of strew she’d pulled from the communal pot. The warmth of the liquid helped her relax muscles she hadn’t been aware she was holding tension in which in turn opened her sense up a little wider to the Force. 

There were so many paths open before them, and Nix could smell sorrow and joy in each. If she had any sort of ‘Grand Destiny’ though, it was one which either lay down all of the paths before her or which she simply hadn’t chosen to embrace yet.

“Where are we now?” Ayli asked. “And what happened after Ravas zapped me?”

“Praxis Mar gained a new mountain range,” Zindiana said. “I’ve had a lot of things try to eat me before, but this was the first time a lava mountain got the thought in its mind.”

“You got up high enough that it couldn’t quite reach us,” Nix said. “Ravas flew us into this Cruiser mostly with the Force I think and then we got out of the system.”

“The New Republic didn’t have a problem with that?” Ayli asked.

“Technically they don’t have jurisdiction here. This whole area is outside of New Republic space. They just weren’t willing to let a bunch escaped convicts have a war fleet to play with,” Zindiana said.

“You know I don’t get why that same logic didn’t apply to the Klex?” Nix said, considering the alternatives before them and listening to her feelings to see which had the right pull on her.

“The Klex Cartel were a known entity,” Zindiana said. “They were into all kinds of illegal things, but they didn’t knock over New Republic colonies, or stations, so they weren’t considered much of a threat.”

“I notice you’re talking about them in the past tense?” Ayli asked with a hopeful note in her voice.

“Thirty-two and the other former inmates forced them into the planetary defense grid. The ships that survived that all crash landed on Praxis, which wasn’t a great place to be with the thousand kilo longer chasms the earthquakes tore open,” Zindiana said.

“I checked the telemetry and none of the ships that crashed got off the planet before the eruptions began,” Goldie said. “And none were visible before we left the system.”

“Rest in pieces,” Ayli said, a sigh of relief escaping her.

Nix didn’t disagree. With the Klex Cartel gone, a number of their problems vanished as well. They would need to return to Praxis Mar someday – the ruins were still there, if in significantly worse shape than before, but their story could still be told and remembered. That was a problem for the future though, at the present neither she nor Ayli were in any shape to take on a challenge of that magnitude.

“That’s probably what you two should do as well,” Zindiana said and then winced at the implication. “Rest that is. Although, letting the galaxy think you’re dead isn’t a terrible idea either.”

“That is certainly a choice they can make,” Kelda said, appearing as a translucent ghost on the other side of the table, her Jedi robes looking pristine while, beside her, a translucent Ravas sat in a simple tunic, breeches, and shawl.

“I thought you said they were dead?” Ayli asked, turning to Nix for confirmation that they were both seeing the same thing.

“We are,” Ravas said. “But it seems we’re both still stuck here.”

“I don’t understand,” Nix said. “I thought bringing you two back together would help you find peace? That you’d be able to move on.”

“It did,” Kelda said.

“We just don’t want to go,” Ravas said.

“Not yet at least,” Kelda said.

“We need you two,” they both said together.

“Uh, what for?” Ayli asked, quicker on the draw than Nix was.

“You’re treasure hunters,” Kelda said. “You managed to find the most precious thing in all the worlds for me.”

Nix noticed that the two ghosts were holding hands, and that Ravas only looked slightly embarrassed by it.

“We have another treasure we’d like you to seek out,” Ravas said.

“You found a Temple to the Dark Side despite it being hidden for centuries and impossible to scry. We’d like you to find one of the lost Jedi Temples next,” Kelda said.

“It won’t be easy though,” Ravas said. “The Jedi knew how to hide things far better than my former master ever did.”

“Which means you will need training,” Kelda said.

“And we would be your tutors,” Ravas said.

“Not masters?” Ayli asked.

“The living are always masters of their own fates,” Kelda said. 

Nix looked to Ayli who met her gaze and nodded after a moment’s consideration.

The future lay ahead of them like a wild, unplanned jump, but Nix smiled.

They were going to be fine.